Something To Forget

From start of the year till now, I think luck had not been with me.
I experienced extreme worries in early part of 2010.
Resulting from which, suffered many sleepless nights.
And losing my purpose and motivation in my life.
But luckily, I managed to snap out of it.
At least, this taught me something -- 'think before you act'.

I also experienced first hand why people said 'money spoils friendship'.
I believed in a friend whom I knew for 10 years.
I help him financially when he was down.
All I get in return were excuses after excuses and empty promises.
I always believed in keeping to promises. But he doesn't.
The basic courtesy would be to explain, not make further promises.
But he didn't.
I am disappointed but most importantly, I had only myself to blame.
For trusting people so easily.

I also felt that maybe I had made a wrong decision in early 2010.
I forsake something which had been with me for 3 years.
To choose something which I felt will be mine for the next 30 years.
But now, I am not sure if it can last more than a year.
If you asked me now if I had regretted making such a decision.
I do not know how to answer.
I only know I had to make a decision at that time.
And that was the decision I made myself. So, I can't say I regretted.
I am still hoping that my decision is correct.
But I felt that my hopes are diminishing slowly each day.

I also could not hold back my temptation to bet during World Cup.
Knowing that I am 'fan tai sui' this year, I should not bet.
But I could not help it and yes, I lost 80% of my bets.
So, this is another sad World Cup for me.

I also didn't really enjoyed my birthday this year.
I travel for 3 hours just hoping to get a simple birthday wish fulfilled.
But I didn't get it.
I was disappointed. I was sad. And I ended up alone.
So, it is fair to say that my birthday this year, is something to forget.

Now that I had passed through a bad first half of year 2010.
I really hoped that my second half of year 2010 can pass smoothly.
Let me go through till end of year with no more incidents or troubles.
Even though I am already numb to everything, but I am still hoping.
For better luck and hopefully, a better me.......

What is Love

My blog had not been updated for sometime, I know.
During this time, I was busy sorting out the thoughts in my mind.
About love and all my relationships.

In my life, I had a few relationships.
For every failed relationship, I learn how to be a better boyfriend.
Some reasons for break-ups were:-
1) I am too controlling or possessive.
2) I am too boring.
3) I am too nice.

For number 1 & 2, I had tried my best to change.
I tried to be more understanding, more relax and more trusting.
I also tried to experience different activities or go for holidays.
Being nice is something I can't change though... *wink.

In fact, I did changed somewhat over the years.
Few months ago, I was talking to one of my ex-girlfriend about us.
About how if we had met now instead of 8 years ago?
Strangely, I can remember lots of things about her & our relationship.
She was the girl I really wanted to marry when I was 21 yrs old.
She wants what, loves what, I will make sure I will get for her.
Even when my salary at that time, wasn't high.
However, we broke up because maybe I am too boring.

I was very sad when we broke up because I am a sentimental guy.
I am always serious when it comes to relationship.
But yet, I am also always unlucky in love.
Actually, all I want is to have a girlfriend who understands me.
And love me the way I love her.

I thought I had found one whom I can love for the rest of my life.
But I am not sure about it anymore.
I have no regrets with all my relationships so far.
Even though it brings heartbreaks more than anything.
But I was the one who decided to love and be loved.

I believed what can't kill me will only make me stronger.
I believe one day I will find someone who loves me as much as I love her.
I still believe in love.
I still believe it will happen.

Back from the Philippines

I am finally back to Singapore on 18 Feb 2010.
After a cool 4 days 3 nights of holiday there.
Actually, I almost could not return because we arrived late at airport.
However, we sort of managed to sweet talk our way through.
And finally made it back home.

When I told my friends I was going to Philippines, almost all ask why...
It seems to me that nobody would consider going there for holiday.
In fact, I have to admit that Philippines was not my choice of holiday too.
However, I was convinced by my Philippines loving friend to go there.
I agreed as I do not wish to be interrogated during Chinese New Year.
And so off we went....

My friend did some pretty comprehensive research about the place.
Such as the hot-air balloon, go-karting and shooting range.
But those places, eventually....... we did not go.
Instead, we went for shopping, eating, drinking, singing and be merry.
Those kind of activities which we can also do in Singapore.
But at cheaper prices in Philippines.






Jolliebee
(Similar to KFC in Singapore)











One thing I notice about Philippines food is that it is not spicy.
Actually, I believed they don't give you chili unless you ask for it.
However, the food is still not so bad if you know what to order.

The other thing I notice about Philippines is that it is not very clean city.
The place was dusty and smoky.
But it does not mean that I regretted going there.
In fact, I like to go places that does not resemble Singapore.
This allows me to enjoy a different experience which I wanted.

The good thing about Philippines is that almost everyone speak English.
So, you can roam about and not worry about communication problems.
Also, the beer and cigarettes there were obviously cheaper.
One pack of Marlboro Light cost just 40 pesos = S$1.25.
One bottle of 330ml of San Miguel Light at pub cost 32 pesos = S$1.
But I ain't gonna reveal how many bottles I drank in total... :)
In the end, I merely bought some t-shirts and souvenirs.





The swimming pool.
Practically quiet.








However, after I am back.... I fell sick the next day.
Hopefully I get well soon and alls well ends well.
Wish me luck ya.....

Forever Is Not Enough

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In order to enter into our 2 casinos in our already expensive land.
All Singaporeans and PR have to pay $100 per day or $2,000 per year.
For tourist, they are exempted.
Honestly, I think this is crazy.... no, it is absolutely ridiculous.
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Since Valentine's Day is tomorrow and I am going to Philippines for holiday.
I am dedicating this song sang by a Philippines singer to all of you.
Sarah Geronimo - 'Forever Is Not Enough'
Hope you like it.

Chinese New Year 2010

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With Singapore population at 5 million and new flats reaching 50 storeys.
We are definitely over-populated and suggestion was to go underground.
This coming from words of a female MP.
Maybe, in future, humans and not cars will be subjected to ERP.
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Chinese New Year is coming around the corner again.
In fact, it is only one week away.
But I can't say that I am enthusiastic about it.
The same old repeated endlessly chinese new year songs.
To the incessant questions about marriage and kids.
Together with the boring hours spent at my relatives' homes.
All these are reasons why I never quite like Chinese New Year.

Previously, I was working shift hours and have excuses from visiting.
But now, I am on office hours and excuses are hard to come by.
Furthermore, I will not be paid if I go back office on public holidays.
So, I decided on a perfect way to get away from it all.
By traveling overseas, this time, to Philippines instead of Thailand.
If you are thinking why, it's because plane tickets are cheaper.
I think this is the best way to enjoy my Chinese New Year 2010 happily.
:)

The Pupil

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Police investigation revealed that Dr Silviu Ionescu is the hit-and-run driver.
But it's kinda useless now because he ain't gonna come back to Singapore.
I think chances of Singapore snowing is higher than hoping for Romania to..
bring that @#$% who show no regard for Singapore Police Force back.
I guess, maybe we can only pray he kena hit-and-run in Romania.
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Just last week I catch the Channel 5 show called "The Pupil".
Basically, its a show about lawyers and the law.















The show was pretty decent.
But what attracted my attention was her.......


















Her name is called Elfaeza Ul Haq....

Is it only me who think that she is chio?...
Even if you don't, you should probably watch this show.
It's showing every Thursday @ 8.30pm.
If you watch already and find her chio too, let me know ok?
:)

Back from Holiday.... again

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Sometimes when we lost a bag or phone, we start shouting here and there.
If only sometimes we stop and read more about the Haiti Earthquake.
People who lost not only their phones but also their homes and families.
This got me thinking.... how silly sometimes we are.
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I am back from my holiday!




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Anyway, I took an additional day leave to recover from my trip.
But I am not looking forward to going back to work fully energised.
Instead, I am already thinking of my next holiday trip.
I guess this is normal right?

Anyway, Starhub finally replied to my email 9 days later.
This is what was in the email:-
"Thank you for your e-mail. Please accept our sincere apologies for
the extended time taken to reply to your e-mail as we are
experiencing high volume of queries.

We have informed the relevant department regarding your concerns,
please be assured that they will follow up with you as soon as
possible. We appreciate your kind patience in the meantime."

Naturally, my next email to them was this:-
"I will appreciate if you can let me know which relevant department
is handling the matter and how to contact them."

Then, their standardised reply came as follow:-
"Please be assured that we have forwarded your concerns to the
relevant department, requesting them to get in touch with you as soon
as possible. Your patience in awaiting for their reply is
appreciated."

I know I am supposed to stop and read more about the Haiti earthquake.
But then again, I am a true blue Singaporean.
If something is not right, I will never accept it lying down.
If Starhub customer care is so lousy, there is always M1 and Singtel.
No wonder why Starhub lost the EPL rights to Singtel.
Serve them right!